Friday, September 30, 2011

Two Years Ago....

Two years ago, I was sitting exactly where I sat today (two years ago it was because my doctor told me I needed to rest, today it was because my almost two year old (tomorrow!) had a a fever.  All day long, I kept thinking, "how funny; how ironic."  I can't believe it's been two years.  Everyone said cherish each moment because it goes by so fast.  Of course, I didn't believe them, two years is a long time.  But as I sit here today, I wonder, have I cherished each moment?  Have I taken enough time to "stop and smell the roses"?  Or have I been too worried about getting it all done and being the perfect wife, the perfect mom, the perfect coworker to have let these two years fly by without realizing how fortunate I am.  I am a mom.  I have someone that needs me, if only to cuddle in the middle of the night because he had a bad dream.  I bathe him and take care of him and love him so much.  But does he know this?  Have I shown him enough how special he is to me?  October 1, 2009 changed my life forever.  And I don't ever want him to think that I don't think he is one of the most important people in my life, if not the most important.  Everything I do I do it for him, but from this day forward I will not put anything before him.  That is my birthday gift to him....me.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Sunday Afternoons

Oh how I love Sunday afternoons.  All the laundry is done, errands run, soup in the crock pot, toddler napping.  It is the best time during the week.  No going 110 miles an hour; it is my time to actually sit with my feet propped up on the couch and do whatever I want to do.  I do not have to try to understand toddler-speak, I don't have to nag my husband to put away the bread in the kitchen after he is done using it.  While I love trying to translate my son's language and I really love to nag my husband, I look forward to my time.  Does this make me selfish?  Maybe.  But I figured there are 7 days in a week, I am selfless 6 of those days, I am allowed to be selfish for one.  I allowed to sit on fanny and do nothing for a couple of hours one day a week.  Don't take away my Sundays!  Oops, I hear the baby.  Sunday afternoon is officially over! 

Monday, September 12, 2011

Summer's End

It's been awhile since I last wrote.  Summer got the best of me like it always does.  You think you have so much time and before you know it, the long days are getting shorter, school is back in session and another summer has set.  Now it's time to think about fall and fall activities, namely Halloween.  I have decided that I want to be able to make my children's Halloween costumes, much like my mother did when I was growing up.  I remember her sitting at her sewing machine, sewing an eye patch for one of us who decided to be a pirate that year.  My husband thinks I am crazy.  Says that I can sew "in all my spare time."  But I want to be that mom.  I want to be able to come home from work and be the mom that tucks her kids into bed and works on all of her projects.  Is it so wrong to want it all?  And maybe I'll get so good at sewing that I can make clothes for my family too....who knows.  maybe I'll be the next designer on Project Runway.  But for now I'll stick with the basics....and Halloween costumes!